sometimes it’s not so easy. i will be honest, i have had a spell of several rough days. willow got sick, and things just kind of tumbled out of control. she’s fine now, but the whole diagnosis process was scary. it ended up being some kind of throat nasty that was missed on her first doctor visit. when your baby isn’t well, your whole world is out of whack. lack of sleep, combined with obscene amounts of stress tend to fray nerves. and then all these other things happened that piled on top of the fact that my baby was sick, like i left my car windows open outside and it rained (my car interior is soaked), i wasn’t able to put willow down for a second, not even to brush my teeth or take a shower (try doing that one-handed), i put the garage door down on my car, a zillion bills came due all at once, one of my dogs pooped on the floor, oh the list goes on. when everything is just whirling around you, and you feel like you’re treading water to keep afloat, it’s hard to take the time or mental energy to be grateful. but that is really the time that i should have been the MOST grateful. grateful that my arms are comforting enough to willow that she wants me to hold her. grateful that i have the work to stay busy. grateful that the garage door didn’t break and chris was able to bend it back. grateful that we have enough money to pay our bills and still be comfortable. grateful that it was only water that got in my car and nothing is broken. and mostly, grateful that willow has an illness that she can recover from.