so i’ve noticed that throughout my blog i always talk about willow, but haven’t really mentioned the one, absolutely most important person that keeps me grounded, takes care of me and willow and balances my kooky, creative, left-brained person perfectly. chris. sometimes i feel like i take him for granted, he’s just always there for me, always doing for us, almost like an extension of me, and it becomes a go with the flow kind of thing. he works tirelessly, loves tirelessly, and is the best daddy in the world. he never goes a day without telling me how beautiful he thinks i am, how lucky he is to be my husband, what a great job i’m doing as a mommy. he is the type of guy that little girls dream of marrying. he’s mine, all mine!!! yipppeee!!! i love that man so much. he is going through a very difficult time right now. i often see him as a super man kind of guy, carrying the weight of the world and able to handle anything that’s thrown at him. i have seen a more vulnerable side of him in the past 2 days. he’s dealing with some things that most people couldn’t imagine, stirring up so many mixed emotions that need to be sorted out: sadness, regret, guilt, hatred, love, forgiveness. i just want to keep my arms around him and never let him go. when he hurts, i hurt.